I have a very strong feeling

I woke up this morning with a very strong feeling that this IVF did not work.  That the embies are gone.  That they've been gone for awhile.  Its based on the fact that when I woke up this morning, I felt all the full-blown PMS signs that I get every month.  Looking back at all the symptoms I've had since the transfer, I just don't see a pattern indicating pregnancy.  I know I just posted about how you can't read the signs, but honestly, you can't expect me to just IGNORE them, can you??!

And I know that my intuition does not equal fact.  I understand that on a rational basis.  But I also feel this certainty that the IVF failed, and I feel deeply, deeply sad. 

I'm not going to let my thoughts run away with me.  I just wanted to acknowledge this feeling, acknowledge that it doesn't mean anything other than that I'm having a sad day, and then let it go. 

I've purposely been vague about the date of my pregnancy test because I want to give myself time to deal with the result, whatever it is, and time to share the news with family and close friends before I post anything here.  But I can say that by this time next week, I'll know whether this intuition was right or wrong.

Thanks again to all of you for your support throughout this process. 

Comments

[Amy Love]

Marie,
As you know I got a positive yesterday, and on Monday I was absolutely convinced it had not worked. I was wrong and I am praying like crazy that you are too. The symptoms you've described are almost exactly like mine. Please hang on!

Amy

[Annette]

Marie...I am sure its hard to hear the hopefuls thoughts because it could get hopes up...but the pms feelings are the feelings you get. I cried for days when I was prego with brooke thinking I was getting my period. I wore a pad expecting it...(sorry for the deets...lol). So as it may be hard to get hopes up ...you still never know. I still have my fingers crossed.

[Chrissy]

Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[shanzie]

hang in there marie! you have my love and support... to go along with my unwavering hopefullness.

[Emily]

That is the very worst feeling. That is the feeling that sends my world spinning...
Sending you big hugs and hoping and praying that the feeling goes away and you get good news...

[Laura]

Hi Marie, I just stumbled on your blog. After sooooooo many years of 2ww's (I've never counted how many 2ww's I've experienced) and a little over 2 years since my last one, a post like yours still brings me right back. I swear, there were times I could have written this post word for word. I have 2 beautiful children - but can never forget that intensely complicated and difficult experience of those 2 week waits. Good luck.